wallflower

where should i start? so... it's been another year for me, that being said, so much happened in the past year, it's strange just how much i've learnt from different things, different people, different mediums. that it's okay when things don't go my way. perhaps it's the best for that situation. and everything happens for a reason that some people serves as a blessing, some as a lesson. realizing how mundane life is and those "fuck it" moments before doing something regrettably stupid. as to how i always wanted to have fun, thinking i'll have the freedom later to make up for lost time. and then realizing i don't.
right now i want to start afresh. i'll think about what i want in the future, what i want for my tomorrow, what i can do to make my life better. i'm not looking for a way out anymore like i used to, i'm looking for a better alternative, a better way to deal with things.